self_abuser

i slashed my wrist
gave the knife a final twist
in search for inner peace
some sort of release
i am a born again nihilist
i don't need you to be my apologist 
pump some heroin into my vein
to try and release the pain
you can call it self-abuse
or just another excuse
To avoid facing up the reality
that just my mentality
i am into self-denial
i cough up phlegm and bile
i am going to try starvation
in the hope of salvation